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"I want to dance around to Saves The Day w/ a true friend in my room. I want carefree moments again. I want true smiles and more cute pictures on my wall. The kind of pictures when your really together... when you are so happy... when your smile is so wide it is like trespassing on the other person's face. When it's real... when you laugh after you take it and cry when you get it developed and see it again. A picture with true friends that I can find comfort in when I look at it knowing that they are my friends.. my real friends... who I care for and they care back."

-maura elizabeth curtin (December 2001)

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reading it in the paper just made it that much more real.
what the fuck.

Maura Elizabeth Curtin. There are no words in the English language that could justify her entire being. Almost every amazing moment in my life belongs to her and I wish I could pick just one but that seems near impossible. I will hold onto every memory of her with such intensity…All the nights she surprised me outside my bedroom window. Late night trips to the beach. Singing every song we loved at the top of our lungs and laughing until our sides ached. Every single memory will always be so close to my heart. Without her presence, without her infinite wisdom, without her infectious laugh…I don’t think I would have made it this far. She made me sane when I needed it most. I don’t think anyone else in my life has had this much of an impact on me, like Maura has. During a time where she should have down right hated me, she only loved me. And I owe her so much more than she could have known. I carry your heart with me; I carry it in my heart

i miss you maura.

you don't know how lovely you are

i've never been good with death.
even walking into the Mercadante funeral parlor, my anxiety soared through the roof.
i had to lose both grandparents there and now a friend.

but if i took anything away from this experience,
it's that Dom is probably the most loved person on this planet.

Goodbye, Dom. <3
you touched so many lives.
& i feel so fortunate to have known you
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november 8th

tomorrow is my grandmothers year anniversary.
i stopped by the cemetery today to bring her yellow roses. her favorite.
sometimes i think i'm going to forget everything about her.